Anyone who is in a long distance relationship knows that any time you get to be with each other is super special, every second you spend with that person makes you appreciate them more and more. There is nothing like physically being with the one you love, even if you are with a ton of other people, just sitting next to your love is a great feeling.
The first night we were together in India Tom gave me the most beautiful necklace, I wear it everyday no matter what, but yesterday I forgot to put it on before I left for work. I felt like I naked all day, it might sounds weird, but when I wear that necklace I feel like he is right next to me. I know he is always with me, don’t get me wrong, but that necklace just gives me something to touch and hold on to that makes me feel better.
When we were in India together I think some of my favorite times were on the trains traveling together. Even though there were a ton of people around us, to me it was just him and I on that train traveling. The train was the one spot we could sit right next to each other and actually touch each other in public and not get in trouble.
I remember when we were on the train getting ready to go to the airport in Delhi and the train was full of people. The train is set up kind of like 2 benches facing each other and 3 to 4 people can sit on each bench. The train books for 3 people per bench but that day we had 4 people on one and 3 people on the other bench.
On the bench that Tom and I sat on was a older man sitting Indian style with his legs crossed, me and Tom, then a younger man sitting next to Tom. The guy sitting next to me kept touching me with his dirty feet, anyone who wears sandals in India will have dirty feet, but that does not mean I want your feet touching me. I was almost sitting on top of Tom and at one point I wanted to ask him if we could switch seats, but then I saw the younger guy next to Tom and I thought to myself he probably does not want me sitting next to him ( wink wink).
But to me on that train it was just Tom and me, that’s how it felt to me really, even though there were a ton of people, it still felt like it was just him and I. I think it felt like that because I was laying my head on his shoulder, rubbing his arm with my hand and him and I were just talking and all of his attention was only on me. Not that Tom didn’t pay a lot of attention to me, because he really did, but for some reason on that train ride that morning it was different to me. It was intimate, even with all of those people around, he was speaking to me quietly and we were laughing and just having a little “party” between the two of us.
To tell you the truth I was really trying not to cry on the train, because it was my last full day in India with Tom and I was very sad. When I woke up in the morning I took a shower and I couldn’t stop crying in the shower because I was so upset about leaving him. I tried to pull myself together when I came out of the bathroom but I could still feel the tears welling up in my eyes, and my hands were shaking so much I could hardly pull my hair up into a ponytail.
Tom never tells me that I’m dumb when I’m crying or that I’m being over dramatic or anything like that. He tries to walk me through the crying the best he can when we are not together, but on this day it was different, we were together. He wiped the tears from my face and kiss my forehead and told me everything is going to be okay, we will be together forever soon I promise you Babe. Even though those words made me cry even harder I still felt a sense of relief come over me when he wiped my tears and said that to me, like I knew everything was going to be okay.
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