I said to my friend Juls “I was happy as pigs in mud”

I’m having a really hard time right now being away from Tom. The past couple of weeks have been very hard for me for some reason, I think the separation is finally setting in, that we are apart, and we might not be together for a while still.

This past weekend Tom went to see his friend Leela who is in India for his sisters wedding for a few weeks. I love when Tom is with Leela he is very different when he is with him, and by different I mean a good different. Its like he can be who he really is with Leela, not who “India” wants him to be kind of. The difference between Leela and his roommates is that Leela likes me and knows me, and his roommates don’t know me at all

Since he was with Leela we were able to talked all weekend, he answered his phone every time I call him, I had 100% of his attention when he was with Leela, it was great. Not that he does not give me attention any other time, it was just a different attention this past weekend. I usually know when he is with his friends because he speaks to me differently, and he uses one word answers a lot of the time, but I understand that because there are times when he calls me and I have to use one word answers too.

This past weekend was one of our best weekends since he has been in India though. I said to my friend Juls “I was happy as pigs in mud” when Tom and I got done speaking on Sunday night. I was not feeling very well on Sunday and I really just wanted to talk to him, but when I called him he seemed to be busy, so I just went about my day and eventually took a nap. In the middle of my nap my phone made a weird buzzing noise, I just got a new phone so I don’t know all the noises yet, but it was a message from Tom. This is how I know I love this man, because as soon as I saw his name come up on my screen I got butterflies in my tummy....

I sometimes don’t think he knows how special he is to me, he told me this weekend I am the rock of our relationship, but I believe it takes two of us to be a rock and hold our relationship together. We each put our 101% into this, I put one thing into our relationship and he puts something else in, and at the end of the day it fits into place like a puzzle and it works for US, it might not work for other people but it works for us.

I cant not express to him enough how much I love him, from the bottom of my heart I love that man, I cant see my life without him. At Christmas time he said I hope next Christmas we are together Babe!!! Well I know we will not be together this Christmas but maybe the following Christmas we will be together. Now that I have been with him it makes me want him here for every holiday, but I have to remember that everyday that passes by is just one day closer to us being together.